I'm making this post because I want to be honest with all of you. For the past few days, I've been suffering from severe depression and I've not been okay mentally. It's been years since I've felt like the way I've been doing right now and... it almost led me to do something stupid yesterday. One step, that's all it took. I don't know what compelled me to pull out, but I didn't go through it. I wrote letters to my friends, thanking them for being there for me and apologizing for almost taking what I saw the only way out. One of them called and texted and... I picked up the call. I can't say I'm feeling any better since what happened yesterday. But, i do know that the show must go on, that i gotta keep living life and that I can't keep everything at a halt with the way I am. But yeah, I wanted to say how grateful I am to the people who've been checking in on me and keeping me company. I've felt alone but those people reminded me that i should never feel that way. I am always grateful to those people and proud to call them my friends. I want to apologize to anyone i disappointed, for anyone who I hurt or to anyone I caused any distress. I was being stupid and selfish and I never want to hurt or cause anguish for people. I'll try my best to never do that again and hopefully make up for it. I honestly don't know how to end this post but I want to say, I know things aren't easy at the moment but... I still want to be there for people who need someone... after all, that's why I'm here.